This blog is created to honour the end of my Nationals Inter-School Canoe Championship 2009 and the end of a Canoeist Career in Junior College.
The 1st few post will be dedicated towards the setting up of this blog and will convey my thoughts and feeling over the 4 days event to honour the Sports
which I really believe in, fought for, bleed for and gave my life to.
A New Chapter: The Aftermath
Monday, April 20, 2009 @ 10:22 PM
"If you have never failed before, you can never say that you have truly won before."
Frankly, I wonder how long I'm going to get emotional over nationals, over failing what that has been entrusted upon me, over failing all the trust and faith that is placed on me. I'm pretty disturbed over opening my blog to such a dull start, to such emotional moments. In my life there has never been too many moments which has made me emotional about. The 1st being was love, and after that was still love. I'm glad, and almost too happy that I finally matured as a man, to have something real that I could actually be heartbroken for - that is canoeing.Fortunately, I see encouraging signs that all this trend of being emotional is going to end soon - that's when the phrase hit me in the face, in my brain, not from outside sources, that:
"If you have never failed before, you can never say that you have truly won before."
No 1 in this world can ever say that they can truly be proud of something that they have never work for before, and have never failed before. I always have my heads up to Calista, whose love in badminton knows no boundary, and Christine, whose determination stretch for as far as she have ran in track and field. And then there's Wei Wen, I don't know. She told me she has never NOT won a medal before in previous CCAs, so I guess I can close 1 eyes and term Wei Wen as a warrior too. I'm sure they have tried, have failed, and have been disappointed before, and maybe at 1 point in time they were even more distressed than I do. Today(National School Canoe Championship) is the day I, Kenneth, experiences total defeat and humiliation. What was unknown till today is that
"What i perceived to be my ultimate defeat turns out to be my ultimate victory."
Victory because, it plunge me into my own world of thoughts: emotional, hate, resolution and everything powerful in the human mind. This competition has become a source of power that I can tap on in future, the hate I have for myself, the passion I have to strive, and the hardship that it contained. I have learn many many things, this 1 competition alone may have all the experience that I need to learn this life time. At least, I'm into something real now. I have came such a long way, I have gave up everything I considered dear to me - Gambling, Gaming, Slacking. I have met a dear group of friends wiling to fight and die alongside competition. And maybe there was one point in time that I thought TPJC is going to be my last destination for my education because it's the last place where I simply like to go, I don't like to specialize in discipline like in Poly or University, but there is a reason for me now
...
...
Onward!
Arise!
Ex-TPJCian NUS Canoeist! The powers that you once served has need of you once again.
The National School Canoe Championship is just a significant milestone for me. It is soon, time to prepare for the next season - 4 years down the road. Just like Olympics are held every 4 years apart, it be the same for me. I'm gonna enter National Canoe Championship, 4 years later, representing NUS, if I win, I'll return to TPJC and find Mr. Chua where I can proudly say, this is the man who is the very beggining of this successful canoeist. Without him, there won't be me. Medals the competition may offer, it is only temporary, our spirits live forever! Take note ya Ignatius and don't be stuck down there in that hole of yours - (failure as a captain). Christine will be so. I don't know. You shorten her life span you know? You're heartbroken right? so change! your PM at least. Arise Ignatius, proud Captain of the 08/09 batch.
From Adam Van Koeverden's blog: Stress, Rest, Adapt, Improve.
Remember what I say here ya? This is the reason why this blog is created
...
...
...
because to merely survive anin't enough
Frankly, I wonder how long I'm going to get emotional over nationals, over failing what that has been entrusted upon me, over failing all the trust and faith that is placed on me. I'm pretty disturbed over opening my blog to such a dull start, to such emotional moments. In my life there has never been too many moments which has made me emotional about. The 1st being was love, and after that was still love. I'm glad, and almost too happy that I finally matured as a man, to have something real that I could actually be heartbroken for - that is canoeing.Fortunately, I see encouraging signs that all this trend of being emotional is going to end soon - that's when the phrase hit me in the face, in my brain, not from outside sources, that:
"If you have never failed before, you can never say that you have truly won before."
No 1 in this world can ever say that they can truly be proud of something that they have never work for before, and have never failed before. I always have my heads up to Calista, whose love in badminton knows no boundary, and Christine, whose determination stretch for as far as she have ran in track and field. And then there's Wei Wen, I don't know. She told me she has never NOT won a medal before in previous CCAs, so I guess I can close 1 eyes and term Wei Wen as a warrior too. I'm sure they have tried, have failed, and have been disappointed before, and maybe at 1 point in time they were even more distressed than I do. Today(National School Canoe Championship) is the day I, Kenneth, experiences total defeat and humiliation. What was unknown till today is that
"What i perceived to be my ultimate defeat turns out to be my ultimate victory."
Victory because, it plunge me into my own world of thoughts: emotional, hate, resolution and everything powerful in the human mind. This competition has become a source of power that I can tap on in future, the hate I have for myself, the passion I have to strive, and the hardship that it contained. I have learn many many things, this 1 competition alone may have all the experience that I need to learn this life time. At least, I'm into something real now. I have came such a long way, I have gave up everything I considered dear to me - Gambling, Gaming, Slacking. I have met a dear group of friends wiling to fight and die alongside competition. And maybe there was one point in time that I thought TPJC is going to be my last destination for my education because it's the last place where I simply like to go, I don't like to specialize in discipline like in Poly or University, but there is a reason for me now
...
...
Onward!
Arise!
Ex-TPJCian NUS Canoeist! The powers that you once served has need of you once again.
The National School Canoe Championship is just a significant milestone for me. It is soon, time to prepare for the next season - 4 years down the road. Just like Olympics are held every 4 years apart, it be the same for me. I'm gonna enter National Canoe Championship, 4 years later, representing NUS, if I win, I'll return to TPJC and find Mr. Chua where I can proudly say, this is the man who is the very beggining of this successful canoeist. Without him, there won't be me. Medals the competition may offer, it is only temporary, our spirits live forever! Take note ya Ignatius and don't be stuck down there in that hole of yours - (failure as a captain). Christine will be so. I don't know. You shorten her life span you know? You're heartbroken right? so change! your PM at least. Arise Ignatius, proud Captain of the 08/09 batch.
From Adam Van Koeverden's blog: Stress, Rest, Adapt, Improve.
Remember what I say here ya? This is the reason why this blog is created
...
...
...
because to merely survive anin't enough