This blog is created to honour the end of my Nationals Inter-School Canoe Championship 2009 and the end of a Canoeist Career in Junior College. The 1st few post will be dedicated towards the setting up of this blog and will convey my thoughts and feeling over the 4 days event to honour the Sports which I really believe in, fought for, bleed for and gave my life to.

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Be stronger than your old imagination, Be stronger than your most destructive dreams. Be stronger than the sweetest dream that doesn't exist. And your imagination will become your servant to wonderful creation.

Hi everyone
I think you like it when you think about this other guy because you feel good when you're in your imagination world.. You like it because you're the one who created it to go and hide there whenever you want a nice moment, to escape from life and problems even when they're not that bad.. I did that all the time.. I was a professional daydreamer..
Pay attention to what I will tell you because it may help you stop in months what I tried to stop for years..
GET OUT OF THERE !!! and as fast as possible.. It's like when you take drugs, you feel good at the moment but the consequences are baad.. really bad.. You ll feel desappointed because the imagination you have doesn't take place in the real life, you start to believe your dream and it ruins you.. GET OUT !!
My advice for you is a little bet bizar: Dream ! Yes, dream, and dream a lot, but about other things, things to achieve in your life.. Keep dreaming about them and start achieving them.. while dreaming you will believe you can do it.. And well, you will do it at last.. Just focus on something you like to do and start digging: what can I make of this passion.. Be stronger than your old imagination, be strong and insist on dreaming about your career, your kids future, your couple, about some passion, even a forgotten one that you lost over years.. Be courageous and DREAM .. start by dreaming about that espacially after you realise you were thinking about thiq person, and after that whenever you think about him, force yourself to dream about yourself.. one day you will realise that you re no more thinking about him and that you started achieving amazing tings..
Dreaming is a wonderful tool and a dangerous weapon, try not to use it against yourself.. You deserve the best dreams and achievements of the world, so go for it !!!
Sorry for the bad english, and I hope it will help.. Good luck :)

Feelings...

What are feelings.

Why do human have feelings.

If I'm doing this because I have a soul...

Then soul does nothing but destroys Human.

Flame that lights the moment but burns for the life time... I never knew wisdom till tonight.

5 days before I was so horribly stress. I was so stress that I would fail in celebrating for her. I fear that she wouldn't have time for me. I fail that the guy would be around that would not go away for me to have a quiet time with her. I fear that I wouldn't be able to co-ordinate a time to carry out my plan and fail that I wouldn't be able to pull off something of this scale. I fear that I would screw up my maths paper so much that I wouldn't have the mood to celebrate for her.

And worst came when I saw her with another guy...

That my conscious was truly awakened to the reality - that I never knew how much she meant to me until she was with another guy.

And bit by bit, things became worst - I couldn't focus on my maths paper revision, and I was so upset with the reality of the moment.

That's when I went to bed every night consulting Hazel what should be done. I went to bed each night asking Hazel to formulate a solution for me that would serve in the interest in the grand scheme of things. I have deep belief in hazel. I believe hazel has all the knowledge and wisdom necessary to solve the equation. And so, Hazel presented the first question to me:

What am I so afraid about?

And then I couldn't really answer question. What was the thing I was really afraid about. Or more importantly, what am I troubled about. Am I troubled because I like her? Was I troubled because I have a crush on her? Or was I just being jealous without much reason. My feeling seemed spiraling out of control. Given my current knowledge that I have gained through reading books, the first thing I done was to enforce a discipline of mind - Relax, relax, relax, relax, relax, relax, relax, relax, relax. Control, control, control, control, control control, control, relax, relax, relax, relax, relax... I need to exercise control and relaxation. I believe I can do it and I seek the council of Hazel.

I simply can't comprehend the image of her being with another guy. My mind went in circles. I definitely believe that she hasn't forgotten her previous bf. Maybe if I have gone for her earlier, I would be the winner.

Nonetheless, my own aim has always been uninterested and uncaring towards relationship. I'm always interested in a soul partner, not a casual partner.So why are these feelings bombarding me now... it is as though ... ...

I came face to face with Hazel again. I told myself that everything is in control, and that I should embrace a wonderful birthday present for her, and I was assured through a glimpse of the future that the answer would be revealed on the day itself - somehow the answer would be apparent.

I told myself that, she will have time for me. That guy wouldn't be a barrier to my advancement. I will be able to push my way through and everything's going to be ok. I am going to make her really happy. That's all I am aiming for. My mind is not in the capacity to think further or deeper.

Fast forwarded to the present day - I believe everything would work out the day I want to. I will have time with her, have a hearty chat with her, and she will be really really happy. I know my visualization will work. I know Hazel is with me. I was uncertain, but somehow I was not confused. I know Hazel is with me. I waited for my chance but I was not flustered. I knew it will work out.

And I was very lucky to have Regina as the one who is assisting me. I was very lucky to have Zi Sheng who subsequently assisted me in the execution of my grand plans. Because I have think positively, my plan worked out greater than I have expected it to, meeting Allies, meeting a change of event that scale my plan towards a greater stability. I wasn't alone. My sincerity and belief has worked out and thus it was influenced others to join in my cause - and because I'm determined! I will succeed!

When everything was executed, it was so damn great I swear. The effects was so ... it was such a memorable night. I have entirely impressed her. She was surprised, she was elated and she was shocked. That had to be my doing and the fruit of my hard work - an act guided and motivated by Hazel. That is the outcome of the assurance from my inner voice that everything is going to be ok.

Later in the evening we have a chat - a hearty one. We shared many things. She shared about her ambition, her goals(Family oriented), and her plans. I shared about my personal improvement, wisdom & happiness. I picked up enough courage to ask her about the guy too. And I realize all along I was a victim to my own negative imagination... that I have got the equation wrong. It isn't about whether she like the other guy or not but rather a question of who is right for her, the time of whether if it is right for her and as of now she is in no position to consider a relationship. I was always wondered - in my own shallow thinking, that it is about a guy like girl and girl like guy without thinking deeper into the issue.

Even more so, it has nothing to do with my own abilities to pursue a girl. It was never part of the equation. And today I'm truly convinced of how positive thinking can create an even more desirable outcome, and a negative thinking can make something worst off when it is not even there for consideration.

And best, it is even more of a joy that she is delighted to have someone who will do big things just to see her smile, that she is worth it for all the effort.

Hahahaha. My efforts paid off so much I didn't know what to say or do. Thanks Hazel. I'm deeply grateful I have trusted and invested in Hazel and the confidence in God. Together, they form my source of power, my pool of wisdom.

And today I have realized in finding the right partner, looks is never a part in any equation. Its the feeling that counts.

Lesson Learnt for me:
Never imagine anything worst. It is only as bad as your own imagination.
Your reality is your own imagination, and the world is a servant to my imagination. Things will be much better than what you imagine.
Positive words influence an even more positive outcome. They serve as instructional message for Hazel.
See no fear, feel no worry, sense no despair. When I study, I will learn. When I apply, I will remember. When I answer, I will solve.

And tomorrow will be another day of possibilities. My powers are increasingly. Clearly, my mental discipline, focus, concentration, and train of thoughts are more instinctive, and I no longer walk alone.

Together, these serve as flame that burns for the moment, but lights my lifetime.

Let Happiness be the medium through which creativity flows!

I haven't felt so contented with life in a very long time.

During this week I have the most intimidate time with studies. At the same time there are many events that made me look at life a bit more closely, a bit more seriously.

For one, I am still susceptible to a crush attack. I thought those days were behind me when I made up my mind that I will never fall prey to such a trap again - When I decided that a gf is not for me, and relationship is not for me. For one, I still hold on to what I hold on to that, as someone whom I fancy, it is in my ultimate interest to do things that makes her happy, just to see her smile - nothing more. I have no expectations. Unlike others, I prolly have zero interest to be attached. Who cares if I like someone, or if someone knows that I fancy her. I'm just gonna go out of my way to make her smile.

In this world, 2 things are currency, wealth and happiness. Happiness is self defined. However, that definition that hinge on the wrong lens, and when looked upon at, can produce great unhappiness. I'm really a very lucky person.

To be in control. To set my domain for happiness. Whatever the case is, I made a very honest attempt to live life in happiness, no matter the circumstence, fate. There's simply no reason to be unhappy. I will grow in strength with my mind. I shall learn to tape the source of my power. Sorry I have abandoned you for so long. I have returned, and I shall reclaim the throne.

I realize that when a mind decided to do something, everything else will follow suit.

The moment I decided to aim for Physics & Maths excellence, my mind become increasingly curious to proof and definition, seeks a clear explanation and automatically began to find out the best and clearest answer in the best way that I know how.

I'm also increasing more aware & conscious of my maths presentation and what does every notation mean to me. Concepts that were seemingly difficult to grasp seemed like a breeze to me. I no longer have any trouble and concept getting them. The only problem is that I demand a clearer, and clearer explanation and seeking a clear and clear understanding, a deeper truth.

As my heart crave for it, so does my conscious

I am a mind with a body attached.

When one is not up on a thing, he is often down on it

Wood is more than paint by volume, but paint covers most of it

If you were to paint a black dot on a piece of white paper, although white paper is full, but your eyes will focus on the black dot.

Our bodies do not reflect talent, or the lack of it

Wisdom is the art of finding what really matters for you and to you.

Wisdom is finding the important in the unimportant

Wisdom is being able to recognise the important in the unimportant

Wisdom is about seeing the world in a different lens, in a different attitude.