This blog is created to honour the end of my Nationals Inter-School Canoe Championship 2009 and the end of a Canoeist Career in Junior College.
The 1st few post will be dedicated towards the setting up of this blog and will convey my thoughts and feeling over the 4 days event to honour the Sports
which I really believe in, fought for, bleed for and gave my life to.
Take Hardship? Easy!
Tuesday, March 29, 2011 @ 11:56 PM
I'm very motivated by what MR LEE Kuan Yew wrote in his book. He says we must be comfortable and be used to doing work.That has a lot of truth in it. If we love doing work, we will be comfortable not idling around. We will get into this habit of being productive and of learning. Most important, we must love where we are and what we love to do. As I'm trying this, I'm busy convincing myself that there must be something that I really love about my job. It's impossible not to like anything therefore impossible for you to not have anything to look forward to.
I must learn to appreciate my life more. I think I'm taking things too lightly. What my brother said is correct. I'm paid to learn what I do. I shouldn't complain. To put things in perspective, I should be lucky where I am. I am in a win-win situation. I have the capital to have high self esteem, as well as finance my canoeing career. Somehow, I fail to realize all this benefit. I must understand that passion require finance to blossom. I don't stay in an ideal world and I must come to term with it. I must appreciate my job, hence my life more. I must change.
I must come to terms that I haven't had a test of hardship. Mugging for studies and chionging for canoeing hardly counts as hardship. Now being placed in an environment where I must struggle to keep up and survive is something new and is closer to the definition of hardship. To survive, I must first admit that I haven't had any sort of real hardship. In face of this, I should see hardship as challenges, challenges as opportunities to learn.
I haven't wake up yet I guess. To start living, I must exit the world of canoeing... ... can I give it up?
Labels: Take Hardship? Easy
A bitter grain of truth
Monday, March 21, 2011 @ 8:12 PM
When I was troubled with something in the past, usually I'll be able to burn them like any other calorie through jogging or swimming. The past few weeks however, is simply not so simple.
I tried every little means I can to persuade myself that making the choice to go into Navy is not a bad choice. I have the capital to support my nutrition plan(which isn't cheap), survive independently and pick up new skills. Most importantly it can support my wider dream of being a better teacher, a better educator of the future generation. However everything seem to just collapse, because I believe there's so much more waiting for me in the realm of canoeing.
When all else seem so dull, I realize something. I realize that, perhaps my life's toughest years might be the 4 years bond I have to serve. After that I'll be free to do what I want to do - be a full time rower? Be a canoeing coach? Be a academic teacher while being in charge of a CCA? I guess I'm just the impatient sort who can't wait to do something I really want to do.
I guess I just got to calm down, and appreciate every moment that life has to offer me. When the pace in life got so fast, so rough it's difficult to appreciate life at its best sometimes.
I tried every little means I can to persuade myself that making the choice to go into Navy is not a bad choice. I have the capital to support my nutrition plan(which isn't cheap), survive independently and pick up new skills. Most importantly it can support my wider dream of being a better teacher, a better educator of the future generation. However everything seem to just collapse, because I believe there's so much more waiting for me in the realm of canoeing.
When all else seem so dull, I realize something. I realize that, perhaps my life's toughest years might be the 4 years bond I have to serve. After that I'll be free to do what I want to do - be a full time rower? Be a canoeing coach? Be a academic teacher while being in charge of a CCA? I guess I'm just the impatient sort who can't wait to do something I really want to do.
I guess I just got to calm down, and appreciate every moment that life has to offer me. When the pace in life got so fast, so rough it's difficult to appreciate life at its best sometimes.
Labels: A bitter grain of truth
Expression & Emotion?
Friday, March 18, 2011 @ 10:46 PM
I just discovered one human behavior: Your emotions determine how much you think and what kind of things you think about.For mine, its quite obvious I guess... Sigh. What exactly am I troubled about...? I don't know. Maybe I know it deep down but refuse to admit it?
"There's something inside me that crawls beneath the surface, confusing... consuming..." - Adapted from Linkin Park, Crawling.
Even hitting the keys on the keyboard feel so tiresome.
Labels: Expression and Emotion
Without Reason There's No Motivation
Sunday, March 13, 2011 @ 11:19 PM
I just realized the reason why have I been performing consistently well in school.
There has been a reason in everything I strive to achieve. In studies, I strive not to let my teachers down. In rowing, I strive not to let Mr. Chua down. Now progressing beyond, I realize I look forward to performing well in everything because I'm a canoeist, a breed of men geared towards excellence. I carry that pride well and high.
Signing on with the military, I have lost the time and the opportunity to do what is closest to my heart - canoeing. I don't even have the luxury to meet up with my juniors anymore. Its quite sad to think of it. My heart is buried in the reservoir. But somehow, I was given this thought that has given me quite a fair bit of motivation. It started when I told someone this "Perhaps without signing on, I might never have discovered my love for canoeing."
It is here when I'm repeatedly squeezed like a gym ball that I come to realize how much passion i have for canoeing. If I have all the time in the world I would have wasted it. In today's terminology, it's call rot. I would have rot my time away. One of my reason for signing on is that I need a regime to carry me through, a kind of discipline. If left to my own devices, I will simply have rotted. Now there's something for me to focus on, and I have discovered my passion. How lovely. A pity, I have reach an age where passion is secondary.
I should cherish my time in canoeing uh. After all, there are quite a few occasion where love is recognized when it is gone, not when it first came. I got to appreciate my presence in the navy and start doing more to be contented, and appreciate navy. After all, without navy there's no canoeing. But then again, without canoeing I wouldn't have become an officer and would never have sign on. It's an irony uh. Haha. Let's laugh it off. I'm happy where I am.
Sign off,
Kenneth.
Proud to be canoeist
... ... and Naval Officer.
There has been a reason in everything I strive to achieve. In studies, I strive not to let my teachers down. In rowing, I strive not to let Mr. Chua down. Now progressing beyond, I realize I look forward to performing well in everything because I'm a canoeist, a breed of men geared towards excellence. I carry that pride well and high.
Signing on with the military, I have lost the time and the opportunity to do what is closest to my heart - canoeing. I don't even have the luxury to meet up with my juniors anymore. Its quite sad to think of it. My heart is buried in the reservoir. But somehow, I was given this thought that has given me quite a fair bit of motivation. It started when I told someone this "Perhaps without signing on, I might never have discovered my love for canoeing."
It is here when I'm repeatedly squeezed like a gym ball that I come to realize how much passion i have for canoeing. If I have all the time in the world I would have wasted it. In today's terminology, it's call rot. I would have rot my time away. One of my reason for signing on is that I need a regime to carry me through, a kind of discipline. If left to my own devices, I will simply have rotted. Now there's something for me to focus on, and I have discovered my passion. How lovely. A pity, I have reach an age where passion is secondary.
I should cherish my time in canoeing uh. After all, there are quite a few occasion where love is recognized when it is gone, not when it first came. I got to appreciate my presence in the navy and start doing more to be contented, and appreciate navy. After all, without navy there's no canoeing. But then again, without canoeing I wouldn't have become an officer and would never have sign on. It's an irony uh. Haha. Let's laugh it off. I'm happy where I am.
Sign off,
Kenneth.
Proud to be canoeist
... ... and Naval Officer.