This blog is created to honour the end of my Nationals Inter-School Canoe Championship 2009 and the end of a Canoeist Career in Junior College. The 1st few post will be dedicated towards the setting up of this blog and will convey my thoughts and feeling over the 4 days event to honour the Sports which I really believe in, fought for, bleed for and gave my life to.

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By post:

1. Connecting the Dots
2. Time
3. Marketting Efforts
4. Musing Of A Year 4 Shearite
5. The Struggle For Freedom
6. Acer Together In Spirit
7. 12 things you need to learn before settling down
8. Parenthood & Mentorship
9. Ironies Of Life
10. Problems

By month:

1. April 2009
2. May 2009
3. June 2009
4. July 2009
5. August 2009
6. September 2009
7. October 2009
8. November 2009
9. December 2009
10. January 2010
11. February 2010
12. March 2010
13. April 2010
14. August 2010
15. February 2011
16. March 2011
17. April 2011
18. May 2011
19. August 2011
20. September 2011
21. November 2011
22. January 2012
23. February 2012
24. March 2012
25. April 2012
26. May 2012
27. June 2012
28. July 2012
29. August 2012
30. September 2012
31. October 2012
32. November 2012
33. April 2013

I feel so obsessed to blog about this:

Forget the peace inside
You’ve given way to the gods of destruction
Full of desire
You feel afraid that there’s nothing left

The ocean is dry
Do you feel hollow?
Nowhere to hide
And nothing to swallow

And when you can’t recognize
Anything solid
Where do you turn?
When you can’t buy it?

What can you believe in now
With no love to follow?
Now that you have lost yourself
Oh, can anything help you now?

Just let your fears go
You might find your way back home
Let your fears go
You might find that you’re not lost

Defining Phrase ain't it? Let your fear go, you might find that you're not lost.
Beautiful Vocal, Beautiful Song
[Sunlounger - Lost]

Labels: Lost

I discussed about this issue "Forgetting Girls" with a friend of mine and I came up with a defining statement. I'm highly in favor to this stand. You agree or not, I'm not open up for debates =D. I post it cause it sounds cool





Cute. I proposed another law. I call it Law of Pain. but since I invented it. It's call Law of Ken


How much you love someone = Magnitude of Breaking Point

Labels: Forgetting Girls

I'm back to my old self. That's when lame jokes start popping up I guess. Anyway. More chops, less talk. I'm here to give a summary of the updates. These original little tricks from me have left many chilled, and many more frozen.

Point 1:
Assuming that everyone is the same, why is it that tennis players do not favor a relationship
Ans: Cause Love(Lurve) in Tennis means zero.


Point2:(Sorry Jun De, for experiencing this 1st hand =/)
From Number 1-10, what number does good school girls belong to
Ans: They belong to 3 & 4. Since bad girls are called 不三不四, good girls must be 3 & 4.


And also some Important Theory

Theory 1: Information Assimilation Theory
You should rest after once in a while from mugging. Your brain absorbs information just like how a pot absorb ingredient for a soup. Mugging and learning is like throwing in fresh ingredient. If you constantly throw in ingredient, they will constantly be set in motion and there will be turbulence. A day of rest will allow those ingredient to settle down and be stable, maximizing the taste of your soup.

Theory 2: Economic Theory of Love
This is interesting. I proposed that a relationship is like an ADAS model. When love is high, your AD is high. Yet love bring about a form of uncertainty that keeps the AD fluctuating. Sometimes you are happy, sometimes you're not. Sometimes its stable sometimes it's not. Yet there will be a time when Business Cycle occur when AD hit a all time high when love's sweet. When that sweetness fate, you'll break up, AD slump and you drop into a recession. For a while, AD can't recover due to uncertainty, reflecting that you're optimistic about whether if the next relationship will work. Yet given time, confidence is restored => and you be ready for a relationship again(AD can increase again). A cute friend of mine proposal that policies can be used to retain the relationship. You can't be too nice to someone(too expansionary), you can't be too bad(too contractionary). But you know it's difficult to estimate and it's often that you over expand or over contract. =/ That concludes the model of the Love's Economic Theory =/ Neh neh la. Mug too much already.


Theory 3:
Don't think so much. HAHA


That's all folks

Labels: Inspiration

Ego: An opinion that you have of yourself ; self image ; self-importance;

I'm living a life that's more geared towards the understanding of this controversial term which I once thought was absent in me. I always thought that it had been undesirable, and for the most part I have tried my best to stay away from its influence, both consciously and unconsciously. I have tried to be humble, to be more accepting, to avoid being self-conceited and all other things I can think of so that I can dis-associate myself with the term in any form, in every way. However, the recent development in my life seem to lure me into it, and in fact now I seem so surrounded by it that I have no explainable for.

The 1st evidence of its influence is that my thinking has led me to increasingly categorize events/system/objects as being superior or non superior. I am increasingly categorizing people into the smart/stupid category, categorizing good questions from stupid ones, differentiating the good and the bad. The notion that I once possessed to treat everything in its neutral entity, to regard everything as equal, is gone, replaced by a thinking that categorize objects according to its superiority with me as the reference point.

The 2nd evidence is that, and perhaps my nature, I really really can't stand people asking someone else questions in front of me. Maybe it's my ego that I'm better than that person, and perhaps its my passion that long for the love to teach. And maybe from someone's point of view, It's really ok to ask. I mean, consciously, I perceive it to be perfectly fine. However, my sub conscious seem to be at odd with me on this subject. I preferred to be asked and I refused to ask others. I have try to hide it by creating the impression that I'm a hardcore thinker and love to dwell in problems but yet in reality I'm not.

And when I'm increasing prioritizing studies above all else, scoring isn't such a simple thing anymore. In fact, I want to dominate. I want to dominate, so badly. There's really no explanation for all the mentality that has existed in me, and the rise of this egoism. I have tried reasoning it out against my sub-consciousness every tangible moments but yet I could find nothing to suppress. There are many more that I have yet to include but I shall cut short for my bedtime draws near in preparation for another tiresome day tomorrow. For now, perhaps it's not or never just about ego, I guess it's about a part of me that I have failed to understand, and every now and then I ponder. For I refuse to accept what is reality, refuse to accept something that is so undesirable to mankind, and refuse to accept something so contradicting to a state of character perfection that I pursue. I guess I should learn to take take a deep breathe or take things easy.

Labels: It's not just about ego. It's about me

I had a chat with Xin Hui and I'm reminded of what I saw a few days back ~ When I was desperate, when I was overcomed with fatigue, tiredness, hopelessness and helplessness.
I lie down on my bed and glare out into the window facing my bed. I glare out at the moon

And through the window I saw a glimpse of the moon, and upon a closer look, I saw something some disturbance that seem to propagate progressively, stronger as it made distance and weaker along its trial. It then occur to me what I thought which could be none other than a glory of my former pride. A Kayaker. And then, something seem to hit me in my head as my brain seem to radiate a kind of heat, a kind of warmth as if controlled by some powerful warlock. Almost as if it was planned, I seem to immediately understand this 1 simple sentence: Overcome Canoe, Overcome Everything. I looked up again at the moon, the disturbance was gone along with the trial. The moon once again radiate in the dark, hazy sky.

If only the moon represents my heart. I'll shall cherish your words, Great 1. Am I hallucinating? it all seem to real.

Labels: Overcome Canoe. Overcome Everything

Everything happens for a purpose.

Labels: Last Words

WENS > I get your argument. Don't worry though. My world functions very differently from my thoughts and most likely there will never be a day where my thoughts manifest in the real world. It means, my thoughts are just for fantasy purposes :)


I wonder what will life be without things that are considered important or desirable to us. Important things like ideology, philosophy, religion, families, education, entertainment, character and also... .... friendship I guess. Not too long ago, I engaged in a conversation. I told them I desired to be alone, most of the time when I can actually be. And so I make a suggestion that I don't really mind if my parents were to throw me in a jungle to live and adapt in. I will grow up to learn the tools of my trade, hone my instinct, sharpen my senses and outwit all forms of danger. When I grow up, I will come to thank them for all the hostilities, adversities, and tribution that I grew up with.

There comes a point where Children were bought into the picture. I hated kids. I suggested that I might do that to them too, send them into the forest to grow and adapt. When they grow up, they'll thank me. I encountered much resistance tho. My classmates suggested that when they came back, they will put me into the same jungle that I sent them to. My children will then say, as suggested by them -.-, "When you die, you'll thank me".

So what are the important things to us. If we have grown up in an entirely different set of environment, will the list change? Supposedly, if my children have grown up in the jungle, will they perceive ideology, philosophy, religion, families, education, entertainment, character and friendship as important as what we have perceived to be important in our society? If i grow up in the jungle, I think I will indeed, have classify differently. Instinct will top the list, followed by pure strength, agility, reflex, speed and so on...

The issue is not on growing up in a different setting. The issue that plagued me is that, I live in OUR society yet my conscious seem to have existed in a different society altogether. The idea that I don't need friend is 1. My choice of solo-ism, individualism, the need for quietness and peace seem to have existed somewhere else that does not belong in this society. At least, my thinking is primitive and my desires quite provincial. For this reason, many people finds me weird, different, humorous, unique, odd, inhumane or whatever you name. Oh well, I better find joy in feeling different soon, or better, indifferent about it.

Labels: Different

You're born on Day 1, and you survive with minimal possessions and needs. As you grow up, those needs multiply. I illustrate this because I strongly feel that human are an independent entity, without needing so much emotional satisfaction to survive. I express this because I'm getting irritated with signs of weakness. I have people claiming that they can't survive with friends, and so they believe I can't. I have people claiming that human need noise to feel alive and so I inevitably need them too. I don't get their logic nor idea. I don't need them to survive. I don't mind being alone. I enjoy being alone. Does this satisfy them? We're born with nothing, except for family bonds. We once survive with that bare minimum that we have. Why can't they survive how they survive when they haven't meet their first friend? we have no friends, and then we found some, and we naively believe that we can establish a paradise on that vague foundation. When we age, we find that these friends, most of them, will not be around, and when you part with your dear life, you will not remember friends.

Labels: The Cycle Of Needs

It has been since nearly 2 years since I was last raised in Maths by She Of the Motivating, the imparter of Maths, Mdm Yap. Had something happen then that make her transfer from Bedok Town to Punggol, that help me in my grades, and landed me in JC, particularly TPJC. Had it not been for her, I wouldn't have enough points to land here in TPJC, but neither will the promise not to take up tuition exist. She has helped me, and provided me with the world's cheapest tuition with the courtesy of Mr. Tony Tan. In return for her gesture, I swore to work hard, to be literate in maths, and I know I can. If i fail, I shouldn't deserve tuition then. And now that I fail, I shouldn't deserve tuition in any sense.

In adverse times, there is no doubt that it is your teachers' words that you held on most dearly to.
... ... Just Practice Kenneth, Don't talk and no action! It is somehow comforting that your inability to do something is indeed due to faults of some sort rather than lacking the aptitude.
... ... Careless mistake is the lack of Practice! Thanks Mdm Yap. Your words held me together when I was defeated today in Lecture Theater by the easiest of questions.

And recounting the times, there is He of Sarcasm, Mr Indra. Never was a moment that he didn't fall back on his trusty tool to put us all on the edge. Typical Punggolites! 3rd language Chinese. 2nd language Hokkien. 1st language Vulgarities. He is the enforcer of dark motivations. His words create a lot of spite and self-detest, yet in those words there held some truth, in fact absolute truth if you can accept the wisdom of his words. Punggolites can never take Physics, because they're not serious in any way, thinking that they're smart but in reality they're peanuts. Here I am, 1 of the 2 person who took Physics to prove him wrong. The other is in MJC and one whom I hated so bad. I need to start thinking! If I ever stand the chance of reverting the tide.

And maybe, sent forth by She of the Motivating might be Mdm Yang, currently my Maths tutor. I swear she looks like Mdm Yap's reincarnate, equally matched in drama and wits, except younger. I have seen enough evidence and events that points to the fact that I need to succeed in what I set out for. I can't afford to f*** around anymore. I'm at a point where I know nothing except for concentration that can save me. I know I have enough content to clinch at least a C in every subject. Whatever that nature has sent forth to set itself against me, I WILL TURN THE TIDES. I know the odds are against me at the moment but they shall be undone nevertheless.


So let all the motivation, concentration, support and hard work converge, and let the spirit be reborn and glow. In the fire a new wisdom shall be born, and tie the promises to a time line that will never fade.

Labels: Promises Undying, Spirits Igniting

LOOK. Just Look. And focus. Look into your pen. When you despair, who suffers more. Your pen or you. Of course your pen. You're the one in trouble and yet your pen willingly carries out your will. Not like the pen knows the answer to the burning question that is so ruthlessly questioning your ability.

Although everything is sour at the point in time, I guess I still have 1 advantage. I still have time to sort out everything, my framework, my mentality and everything that's messy. All is not lost yet for I know I have yet to realize something. Maybe I already have known enough content to get me straight A but have yet to fully utilize them... ... ...yes I know everything I need.

Labels: Pen or You

Haven't you ever wanted to appear kingly and glamorous in front of subjects that you express your superiority towards, that those whom you see as inferior will make a passage for you when you pass. Those people will give way to you and dare not invade your passage before you have done so. You want it don't you? I came to tell you that, yes, I appear kingly in this way before. Now you're jealous. I receive that treatment every time

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everytime you see.
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kingly!
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Everytime I step out of MRT. :)