100%.
I charged in on the opening of exam thinking that everything is under my grasp and I’m ready to score. Things became surprisingly awful ever since day 1(Geography). My mentality has switched from scoring to largely avoiding damage now.
Hmmm. Tomorrow is case study for Economics. I’m left with 25%.
I’m living on borrowed energy. I exhausted too much energy thinking of what will happen if I failed to perform. It comes at a huge price because, if I don’t do well, no one will have confidence in me to teach and educate anymore. I love to teach and teaching is central to me. I regret realizing this too late. Oh well. What we can do now is limited. Seriously, I dedicate my thanks to the 2 person who have really been very supportive, Priscillia and my Senior(just input it in when I’m allowed to, for now, make you a bit mysterious). Kenneth wouldn’t have made this here this far without the support. The cost of failure is too great. It’s like lottery, with only 1 successful codeword for the most prized reward, but many ways to be ousted.
Exam is drawing to an end soon. Do I still have the luxury of aiming high? After all, this is the first time I ventured into an examination feeling so prepared. However, the outcome didn’t left me feeling the same way. Nonetheless, it is not the end until it’s the end. Disappointment, reluctance, anguish, and discontentment will no longer be obstacle. They will be grounded to dust.
Roar!! 25% Left. I have not much confidence for exam this time round. Ironically, the exam I’m the most prepared for is the one I think I will fare the worst for. Nonetheless, there is some strength to this, most important exam in my timeline. I guess, time management, strategy and approach was well done though I don’t think the answer is.
It’s ok. Last 25%. I don’t care how things turn out already. I’m going to use my remaining time and energy to enjoy what’s there for me to enjoy. It’s the process that count, the process of applying all the strategies that you have honed, all the friendship as support that you have, and most importantly there is something I learned that money can’t buy. I have learned that support, true genuine support, especially yours Senior, and from you too Priscillia, is something that is impossible to experience. A level won’t come again. I want that support, but I’m scared to impose on you. Oh well. Tomorrow is econ case study. I’m going to have to think of you again, while I still can before there’s no more econ. Talk nonsense! After econ, thinking about you is still made compulsory!