When I was troubled with something in the past, usually I'll be able to burn them like any other calorie through jogging or swimming. The past few weeks however, is simply not so simple.

I tried every little means I can to persuade myself that making the choice to go into Navy is not a bad choice. I have the capital to support my nutrition plan(which isn't cheap), survive independently and pick up new skills. Most importantly it can support my wider dream of being a better teacher, a better educator of the future generation. However everything seem to just collapse, because I believe there's so much more waiting for me in the realm of canoeing.

When all else seem so dull, I realize something. I realize that, perhaps my life's toughest years might be the 4 years bond I have to serve. After that I'll be free to do what I want to do - be a full time rower? Be a canoeing coach? Be a academic teacher while being in charge of a CCA? I guess I'm just the impatient sort who can't wait to do something I really want to do.

I guess I just got to calm down, and appreciate every moment that life has to offer me. When the pace in life got so fast, so rough it's difficult to appreciate life at its best sometimes.