Sometimes the most important lesson that an event is trying to convey may be something that can appears to the least apparent. I have played close to a million points in ping pong, many trails and errors, many serve, many returns, many smashes and I have learned to play my style. Somehow, something inside me fails as a paddler. If anything, it actually took me more than a million point to finally understand what's behind ping pong. If I see ping pong as a sport that merely concentrates on giving good return, then I'm horribly wrong. Until today I realize I don't have what it takes to be a good paddler. The single and most important thing in Ping pong, is patient, and I don't have it. I have none of it. Relax, I need to relax. Anyone who has played with me long enough will have seen me lost my cool many a times, when nothing seemed to be going right. Yes, nothing has gone right for me. My opponents ain't tough. Their movement and returns are slow, so why can't I win. I think a lot, and I think and think. Maybe, I really ain't got the talents, in ping pong, in anything I deal with in life, even in canoeing, social, and in life. That has been my thoughts in recent months

Somehow, recently I read this manual on Wing Chun fighting technique, I came to realize to a lot of things. The secret to mastering anything, is by admitting that you do not know enough and you must dedicate time to it. It's true. I need to understand more about ping pong, so will you please tell me a bit about you at a time. Ping pong is more than just executing the strokes, its about condensing all the knowledge, understanding, love, passion, patience and training into every stroke you take. I have admitted, that I am noob in ping pong, that I have a lot to learn, that I have a long way to go, that I'm willing to concede defeat, and learn from my mistakes, to improve on where I stand, to get better, and improve. I'm not going to return to my old days of aggression, where I correct my mistakes with an even greater dose of aggression. I'm going to change, where every stroke that comes from me is built on a foundation of relaxation and concentration. I'm going to focus, and believe.

Just like the true meaning in ping pong is not easily seen, I guess my flaws are not easily deciphered. However, now I know. All this yearning to get better, to grow stronger, and the desire to shake away the feeling of inferiority have led me to belittle others and not willing to accept defeat to others whom I see as being inferior to me., and sadly, I have a character that is increasing classifying a lot of people as being inferior to me. Somehow, this ain't me, but perhaps the environment that made me desire and hunger for power so much, I'm transforming. All this desire for power, has inevitably morph into an unquenchable form of ego that have blinded my vision. Unknowingly,
I have became an egoistic person.

I'm not going to get too upset about all this inconvenient truth. If anything about all this that I have said is true, then I guess I will have to agree that


I have always thought that my inability to get better at ping pong is the lack of talent, but in reality its a much deeper flaw that is in existence within me, and growing, if not for ping pong I would never have live to realize. All this is going to go, every smack that I take, I'm gonna smack away all this toxins and I'm gonna believe! Every smack that I take, I'm going to be an improved person, and I know at the end of the day, I would have realize that, there's a lot a lot more for me to learn.

And I believe everything in life is going to follow the same principle. Relax, spend time, and understand. Understand, spend time, relax. Without knowing how to relax, we will never be able to see the true reality to the environment that we're living, interacting and actively contributing to.

To all those who have patiently survive through this long post, I hope that you have learned a thing or 2. Learn to relax

Now then, what's next I wonder ... ...