This blog is created to honour the end of my Nationals Inter-School Canoe Championship 2009 and the end of a Canoeist Career in Junior College. The 1st few post will be dedicated towards the setting up of this blog and will convey my thoughts and feeling over the 4 days event to honour the Sports which I really believe in, fought for, bleed for and gave my life to.

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1. Lost
2. Forgetting Girls
3. Inspiration
4. It's not just about ego. It's about me
5. Overcome Canoe. Overcome Everything
6. Last Words
7. Different
8. The Cycle Of Needs
9. Spirits Igniting, Promises Undying
10. Pen or You

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11. February 2010
12. March 2010
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29. August 2012
30. September 2012
31. October 2012
32. November 2012
33. April 2013

... ... ...Mdm Yang says I'm a good shape for Maths.

Though in many sense that is a compliment, it made me ponder over other things. To my secondary school friends, I think Mdm Yang is just like the young reincarnate of Mdm Yap. They scold the same way, nag the same way, preach the same way, and lively the same the way. I'm glad when I first knew that Mdm Yang is in charge of our mathematical welfare. When she says that my maths is in a good shape yesterday morning, I couldn't help but think about certain troubling fact.

For one thing I am certain, without Mdm Yap and Yang, my maths will be like a pile of debris being washed up ashore. And even right now, I couldn't help but wonder why I didn't achieve the kind of standard in maths that was expected under their guidance. Though I have put in a reasonable amount of effort in maths, it is due to them that my efforts can be amplified. And I should make every distinguishable efforts to remember the fact that if not for Mdm Yap, I wouldn't be in JC. And I should do well to remember too that if not for Mdm Yang, I wouldn't stand a chance to be in the University. As much as I have promised Mdm Yap that I will see to the legacy of my own maths foundation, I found myself struggling and I can't remove that state of inability.

Everything made sense because I guessed I have spend too much effort trying to excel in canoeing. I have come to learn something from past experience. The world cannot function without a balance. It is evident everywhere around us. From the US imbalanced resolution towards Iran, to a person's ultimate obsession with religion, to a person that is driven by the sentiment to slim down. I'm a personality extremist, I should know better.

There has been on 2 occasion when I asked this question: I wish I could relive life so that I can re-prioritized my priority. The 1st person(I forgotten who) told me that, if I could relive, I will end up doing the same thing I do. That's because every thing that we do, we're sure at that moment that it's time well spent. The 2nd person, Mdm Yang, she said it in a more direct manner. She said I would end up in canoeing again. *Laughs* That's true. Canoeing has been my pride. The point is, how much time are we going to waste before we embrace ourselves to what's important. Right now I guess I could, but is it too late... ?

From Mr. Kevin Ng's web site "Mathematics is one of the essential emanation of the human spirit - a thing to be valued in and for itself - just like art or poetry." Have we lack or lost that kind of spirit, desires, motivation and zest to perfect the human spirit that has existed so formidably in such unison to shape the human world for the future generation - for us.

And for the last bit of our conversation, I told her that I have wasted my time trying during mid year by spending 50 hours in Maths to achieve a U. Her reply was, every bit of time that you spend inside will definitely reflect something useful and the usefulness might not show up in your grades. Do I need to explain more? I think the only thing standing between me and my grade is the fear of failure. After all, I have put in even more effort that I have ever wished for. It's not for my own pride that I'm fighting for. I'm fighting to uphold the promise I have made to Mdm Yap in Maths, Mr. Indra in physics as well as to every teacher who have given their effort to make sure I got into a JC. Should I fail, the knowledge that they have imparted will cease to be of importance.

I'm not stress, but merely figuring out a direction to further concentrate my efforts. From this Mathspiration scandal, I should have more than enough reason to push on.

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