This blog is created to honour the end of my Nationals Inter-School Canoe Championship 2009 and the end of a Canoeist Career in Junior College.
The 1st few post will be dedicated towards the setting up of this blog and will convey my thoughts and feeling over the 4 days event to honour the Sports
which I really believe in, fought for, bleed for and gave my life to.
The North's Pole's Cold, The South Pole's Dangerous
Wednesday, May 13, 2009 @ 10:49 PM
The North's Pole's Cold, The South Pole's DangerousA Recollection of the Past, A reinforcement of Goals.
You may say I do not understand the pressure for someone to do well in an examination. There are many reasons and on the personal level, you need to do well to attain your dreams, self-esteem, pride, superiority and character development. On a environmental level, you have the school's expectation to meet, meeting the value paid by your parents as school fee, peer pressure but most importantly, you may be used as a tool for comparison with other people son or daughters.
I hate to see people being so unhappy. Sometimes I find my effort to help them backfire because they think I'm not in their shoes. Their family has everyone in the universities, not to mention their friends and beyond. True. I don't live in such a environment where my parents look down on me so much because I haven't graduated from an University. I don't understand their reasons nor their logic. I have no hard feelings to accept the blame for being so insensitive as to try to console and handle your emotions and stress.
It may not have been so apparent to me in the previous years but every level I progress the stakes seem so get higher. I'm used to receiving praises, for topping the charts in my primary and secondary school days. When word goes around that I'm in a Junior College, it seems that I'm the only one who can rival the highest standing education in my entire family roots: Raffles Junior College. I don't know how you will receive this argument but, I doubt you'll ever be in my shoes that, it feels no better to have no 1 else who is a better candidate apart from you to enter the university. What then would you say?
I have a price on my head. So why am I doing all this? Trying to get your attention, trying to run away from reality through ping pong and doing everything else unnecessary. I'm not confident that I'm completely equipped and prepared to win this war neither can I run nor parley. If canoeing has ever taught me a thing or 2, it has taught me that, winning is not a thing to hope but something to fight for. I can't even hit 1:35:00, who would pity me for not being able to get into finals and not winning. Either way, I better drop my paddle, my bat, my racket and my procrastination and get down to something real.
Strangely. Why am I not feeling the heat from all the stress that is building up. Am I past caring or am I just ignorant. It's time to stop joking around to be serious. Be serious Kenneth for the mark of a true man is built on the foundation on seriousness and focus, not lame jokes and humor. So then let's be serious, seriously.
I hate to see people being so unhappy. Sometimes I find my effort to help them backfire because they think I'm not in their shoes. Their family has everyone in the universities, not to mention their friends and beyond. True. I don't live in such a environment where my parents look down on me so much because I haven't graduated from an University. I don't understand their reasons nor their logic. I have no hard feelings to accept the blame for being so insensitive as to try to console and handle your emotions and stress.
It may not have been so apparent to me in the previous years but every level I progress the stakes seem so get higher. I'm used to receiving praises, for topping the charts in my primary and secondary school days. When word goes around that I'm in a Junior College, it seems that I'm the only one who can rival the highest standing education in my entire family roots: Raffles Junior College. I don't know how you will receive this argument but, I doubt you'll ever be in my shoes that, it feels no better to have no 1 else who is a better candidate apart from you to enter the university. What then would you say?
I have a price on my head. So why am I doing all this? Trying to get your attention, trying to run away from reality through ping pong and doing everything else unnecessary. I'm not confident that I'm completely equipped and prepared to win this war neither can I run nor parley. If canoeing has ever taught me a thing or 2, it has taught me that, winning is not a thing to hope but something to fight for. I can't even hit 1:35:00, who would pity me for not being able to get into finals and not winning. Either way, I better drop my paddle, my bat, my racket and my procrastination and get down to something real.
Strangely. Why am I not feeling the heat from all the stress that is building up. Am I past caring or am I just ignorant. It's time to stop joking around to be serious. Be serious Kenneth for the mark of a true man is built on the foundation on seriousness and focus, not lame jokes and humor. So then let's be serious, seriously.